Okay, friday I was feeling really shitty and all 'cause of my results, not because I didn't score well, but because when i look at my friend's marks, I'm thinking, wait, I so did better than them before. So it stings because it's just adding salt to the wound by knowing how much better I could have scored. I'm slacking like never before and I think I'm gonna end up in the last or second last class. shit!

Okay, whatever. Went out after that with Yi and becks to catch 500 days of summer. It was... disappointing. :( I mean I was reallyreallyreally excited and looking forward to it but it wasn't that great. It was good and original, the way they filmed it, but the scenes could have been better. Oh oh! Haha so awesome coincidentally met SAK at kino! Went to look for her book and met Florence there too.

Then on Sat I went out with Yi to Ikea!  Followed by ION and then met Terri plus saw some other SC girls later. I'm convinced the world is tiny.

Okay I'm gonna post the other stuff on another post. uh.

i've been having bad dreams ever since ah mah left so last night i prayed to God and asked him for a nice/peaceful dream. and that night i dreamt that we hugged each other, and i finally told her how much i loved her in simple chinese. i told becks about it then she joked that maybe she really came down from heaven to be in your dream, and that really made me cry.

life's been crazy these past few weeks. ytd was another nightmare come true. had my first ride in an ambulance though

so now we have to pack, i'm not even leaving in october, it's now. :( and the thing i'll miss most about home would be my grandma's bedroom. sigh.

so i was sleeping practically the whole of ytd, for 16 hours. i'm quite glad at least we're not moving when i'm sec three or four- it would be so overwhelming.

today when i slept again(yes i know. i sleep alot.), had a horrible dream and the first was how my dad, me and grandma were driving in the dark to go to out to eat, or something like that then whenever my grandma walked, she was always ahead of me, or rather i was really unaware that she moved away. and whenever she did, she would always fall and i'd be running to her, asking her if she's okay. i dunno it was weird. felt like i was trying to hold onto what was going to be gone. am i, really? i guess in a way a little, i didn't want her bedsheets to be changed, i kept all her clothes and i'm not gonna list what else i did. ha ha.

the second was about yisie, and how we were at the restraurant and the waitresses were being really insensitive and mean to yisie.

i look at how we were three years ago, and now i'm thinking: look just how we've changed.

ugh, life's a bitch. i know they've been crying for at least two weeks straight, but i've been crying three.

whatever. i need to study for EOYs

oh just remembered something. a few months ago i knew i was straying away, so i prayed to God for something to happen so that i'd be closer. i knew that something would be hard to go through, so i guess if these events were the amount of hardship i needed to go through just so i could be close again, shame on me, and sorry to the others.

don't ask me how i am though, i'm fine